Groups | Search | Server Info | Login | Register
Groups > alt.startrek.creative > #89
| From | Philippe de la Matraque <pdelamatraque@gmail.com> |
|---|---|
| Newsgroups | alt.startrek.creative |
| Subject | ENT WIP: Finding Home 9a/? R/S [R] |
| Date | 2020-11-12 22:16 -0600 |
| Organization | Aioe.org NNTP Server |
| Message-ID | <rol1ca$1sm$1@gioia.aioe.org> (permalink) |
Title: Finding Home Author: Philippe de la Matraque Part: 9a/? Series: ENT Rating: R (for discussion of violence and torture) Pairing: R/S light Archive: Yes to Trekiverse.org, otherwise, please ask. Contact: pdelamatraque@gmail.com Web: http://gabrielle.sytes.net/Trek/stories/findinghome1.html Summary: Sequel to Alien Us. Malcolm Reed barely survived to see to be reunited with Hoshi Sato. But things have taken a downturn and now he needs a new heart and a way to heal. Author's note: I deliberately use italics like this *in text** just because it makes conversion to HTML so much easier. Star Trek: Enterprise Finding Home by Philippe de la Matraque Sequel to *Alien Us** Chapter Nine It was after eleven by the time Trip set the flitter down. Malcolm hadn't said a word the whole hour it took to get home. Trip powered down then turned to look at his friend. And he wondered if Malcolm could come out of this. His eyes seemed unfocussed and his cheeks were tear-stained. He looked like an empty shell of a man, and Trip sincerely hoped he or Trevon could reach him before Trip had to go back to *Enterprise.** That was scheduled for Thursday, in just two more days. "Can ya walk?" he asked Malcolm, "or do you want the chair?" Malcolm didn't respond or even act like he'd heard. Still, he had to get Malcolm up either way. Trip took the blanket off and laid it across the back of his own chair. Then he put his hands under Malcolm's arms and lifted him up. And he stayed up. Trip put the blanket over Malcolm's shoulders. Then, holding on to Malcolm's shoulders, he guided him to the hatch. The hatch opened and Trip saw his dad and Miguel. "I don't know if he can step out," Trip told them. Miguel nodded then reached in and put one arm on the back of Malcolm's knees. Trip got a better grip on Malcolm's upper half, and the two of them got Malcolm past the lip of the hatch. And again, he stood. That's when Trip saw his mom. She approached and kissed Trip on the cheek. She looked at Malcolm and put a hand against the side of Malcolm's face. "Welcome home, Malcolm." Then she moved to his other side. She and Trip got Malcolm walking toward the open door of the house. Behind him, Trip heard Dad and Miguel in the flitter, and he know they were getting Malcolm's bag and the wheelchair. Trip had to sort of lift Malcolm over the step. Mom had stepped back but she joined them again inside the house. "Your room, Trip," she said. So they went down the hall to the first door on the right. Trip noted they'd cleaned it up. He always had some projects to work on scattered about. Miguel entered behind them as Trip sat Malcolm down on the bed. "We need to get him out of those wet clothes." "I'll do it," Trip replied. "I helped him dress recently. Besides he might mistake you for a rather large pterodactyl. I'll try and introduce you tomorrow." Miguel nodded and fished out a T-shirt and some sleep pants from Malcolm's bag. Then he stepped out of the room. "Your pants are all muddy," Trip told Malcolm. "Heck, mine are, too. Let's get 'em changed then you can get in bed." He stood Malcolm up again and tugged his pants down to his ankles. He noted the bandages were also muddy and wet. He realized he'd have to introduce Miguel tonight. He sat Malcolm again and lifted one foot and the other until the wet pants were off. He worked in reverse to get the clean pair on. It was like dressing an over-sized doll. He remembered Lizzie playing with dolls when she was little. Still, he wasn't sure how exactly to get Malcolm's shirt changed. Mom stepped in then and pulled the blanket off Malcolm's shoulders. She lifted his shirt up to his armpits and, one by one, got it off his arms and over his head. She pulled the clean one over his head and gently inserted each arm. "I remember dressing you like this, Trip," she said, smiling. "You were quite a bit smaller then." Trip put the blanket back on Malcolm's shoulders. "His bandages need changed." "I'll get Miguel." She left and Miguel returned a minute later with a med bag over his shoulder. "Malcolm," Trip tried. "This is Miguel, my brother's husband. He's gonna be around to help you." "Hello, Malcolm," Miguel offered. He knelt down in front of Malcolm. "I'm gonna look at your ankles, okay?" Malcolm's head was down, so maybe he saw Miguel, but Trip wasn't sure. It only took Miguel a few minutes to strip off the dirty bandages and put nice, clean ones back on. "You're healing well," he told Malcolm. Then he turned to Trip. "Can you get a wet cloth, please?" "Uh, yeah." Miguel started on Malcolm's left wrist and Trip went to the adjoining bathroom and wet a washcloth with hot water. He took it back to Miguel. Miguel had the splint and bandages off the one wrist. He held it still with one hand and cleaned Malcolm's fingers with the other. Trip used the cloth to wipe the edges of the splint, then Miguel put it back on after he'd replaced the bandages. They did the same for Malcolm's right wrist. "If you can get him up, I'll pull back the covers," Miguel offered. Trip stood Malcolm up and held him there. "We're gonna help you through this, Malcolm. You're a survivor, remember?" Miguel got the bed ready then helped Malcolm to lie down. Then Malcolm turned himself over to face the wall. Miguel tucked the blankets around him. "We need to talk," he whispered to Trip. Then he left the room. "Try and get some sleep, Malcolm," Trip said. "I'll just be in the kitchen with my folks. I want you to feel at home here. You're my brother now, Malcolm." He turned, grabbed Miguel's PADD, and left, wiping a tear from his own cheek. Mom hugged him when he got to the kitchen. "What happened? He's not how you described him." Trip rubbed a hand through his hair and sat down. He suddenly felt very tired. He handed Miguel the PADD and Dad put a mug of coffee in front of him. "He was. He was doing fine. We went to the park this morning. He loved it out there. We talked at dinner." He sighed. "After I left, his folks showed up. His dad started yelling that they had murdered their daughter and cut her up to save her brother who wasn't worth it. He heard that." "His sister was his donor?" Miguel asked. "Did he know? That's gotta cause mixed feelings." "He didn't," Trip said. "I didn't." Mom looked like she might start crying. "That poor man. He's only feeling hurt right now. His sister is dead and his father didn't care that he almost died. You were right to be worried about his family." "His sister apparently volunteered," Trip told him. "She had brain cancer. Terminal. She chose to be his donor. I met her. She hid it. Said she was sick, but not that sick, ya know?" "Was he like that when you got there?" Dad asked. Trip took a sip then set the mug back down. "He was kneelin' by the pond in that park. He was thinking of drowning himself. He's aquaphobic and he was gonna drown himself." "He's going to need a mental health professional," Miguel pointed out. "One's comin'" Trip replied. "The one he'd been talkin' to there." Trip put his elbows on the table and his head in his hands. "I've never seen him like that. How can I leave if he's still like that?" Dad put a hand on his back. "He's family, and we'll help him get through it." Trip dreamt of finding Malcolm face down in that pond and snapped awake. Miguel was right there. There was a soft light behind the curtains that hung behind the couch he was laying on. "My turn for the couch," Miguel said, sitting down by Trip's legs. He looked tired. "I checked on him through the night. No change. He never even closed his eyes. Physically, I can tell he's in pain. That's to be expected so soon after major surgery. I left a message for Dr. Perez to see if I can give him something. It might help him sleep." Trip sat up and rubbed his eyes. "His heart?" "Still pumpin'" Miguel assured him. "A lot of that pain is likely emotional. Even with what happened in the last year, the stuff with his family probably goes a lot deeper." "Something happened when he was twelve," Trip told him. "I wish I knew what." "I hope your guy gets here soon, but I need some sleep. Mom's got breakfast ready. Go get it before it gets cold." Trip stood and stretched his legs. He went down the hall to the main bathroom and took care of his needs. Then he stopped in his--Malcolm's room. The lights were off and the curtains drawn, so it was still fairly dark. Malcolm hadn't moved. And yes, Trip could see his eyes still open once his own eyes adjusted to the dark again. "It's morning, Malcolm," he whispered. "The sun's shining out that window. I can hear the birds chirpin' outside. It's gonna be a pretty day. If you're up to it, I can take you for a walk in the neighborhood. We still have the wheelchair, so you don't have to worry about gettin' tired." Nothing. Trip tried again. "Madeline loved you, Malcolm. She really did. Your dad was wrong. She gave you her heart. She was sick, more than she let on. She wanted to save you and she did." Then he remembered the metal case, the one Ms. Farmer had left. Trip picked it up and set it on the desk. He opened it. Inside were two PADDs. One had a list. A very short list. The first item was an address. Trip guessed it was Madeline's London apartment. The second item was all contents of said apartment to be kept or disposed of in any manner the recipient chose. So, in a sense, she left him everything. Third was a small container, for memorial purposes, if desired. Trip found it and gave it a shake. It sounded like sand, only softer and he guessed it was ashes. It was too small to be all her body, and Ms. Farmer had mentioned a funeral. So this was just a small amount in case Malcolm wanted some sort of memorial. He put the container back. The final item on the list was the other PADD: a video-journal of the deceased, to be viewed by her beloved brother. He pulled out the PADD and turned it on. He could see the first entry was more than six months back. He queued up the last entry, from the week before she died. He didn't play it. That was for Malcolm. He switched off the PADD and put it back on in the case. Then he closed the case and put it back on the floor. In a very small way, Trip felt jealous of Malcolm. He had a whole apartment of things from his sister, some of her ashes, and her own words. Trip lost everything of Lizzie. Her house was gone, her body vaporized. There were no good-byes or last I-love-you's. Trip had parents that loved him but nothing of his sister. Malcolm had everything from his sister and awful parents. Trip wasn't jealous of them, for sure. And he wasn't jealous of all the hurt Malcolm was stuck in, or how he felt without Hoshi, or everything he suffered in Zheiren. Malcolm needed help, more than Trip knew how to give, and he hoped Trevon would come soon. He made sure Malcolm was still tucked in well, then went to the kitchen. Dr. Koy Trevon left the house where he would be staying. It was within walking distance of the address Commander Tucker had given Dr. MacCormack. The elderly couple he would be staying with had offered a furnished guest room. They were happy to share meals and offered free use of the kitchen. They only asked for one hour of therapy, together, each week. They had been quite terrified after the Xindi attack. And while they had not lost anyone they were particularly close with, they were traumatized by the thought of the Xindi's return to destroy the planet. This was somewhat alleviated by the destruction of the planet-killing weapon by the *Enterprise** crew. But, still, they had nightmares and such. And they had issues as a couple. They were committed to their marriage, but the wife was more laid back and had less severe trauma whereas her husband's was worse. He felt she was losing patience with his recovery, and she felt he wasn't trying hard enough to recover. It would be a complicated but more typical trauma case than that presented by Malcolm Reed. Trevon was unsure yet of how to reach the man. Obviously family issues could stem from as far back as early childhood, even from the womb. Whereas he'd been assigned to help Malcolm with his trauma over the last year, he would now have to widen the scope to Malcolm's early and deepest hurts. And that could only happen if Malcolm could communicate in some manner. Last night, that had not been possible except to rename himself Faramir from Sam. Sam represented the early days of his stay in Zheiren, when he buoyed Hoshi's Frodo up. Frodo had been increasingly burdened by the Ring he carried. Faithful Sam had helped Frodo find hope over and over in the depths of Mordor. Faramir, on the other hand, was a faithful son of his ungrateful father. Denethor showered affection on his elder son, Boromir, and had none left for his younger son, who could never measure up in his father's eyes. Typically, that family dynamic would cause a rift between the siblings. The favored child would often mock the unfavored status of the other. And the unfavored child would typically act out, fulfilling the father's view of him as inadequate. But in the fictional case of Denethor's sons, he found a loving relationship between the brothers and a valiant, upright unfavored son--even one who could resist the call of the Ring where Boromir could not--without bitterness. But Faramir, potentially, like Malcolm, had yearned for his father's affection and approval. The realization that he would never receive it had come after Boromir's death. Denethor, likely fueled by his grief and the corruption of the Palantir, had finally spoken outright of his disdain for his surviving son, admitting that he wished Faramir had died instead. He even ordered Faramir to lead an impossible mission. One last time, Faramir outwardly asked for his approval: "But if I should return, think better of me!" Denethor made it clear his approval was conditional: "That depends on the manner of your return."# Faramir, for his part, was devastated to the point of accepting his suicide mission. Gandalf tried to buoy him up: "Your father loves you, Faramir, and will remember it ere the end." He was right. Denethor did remember but only when his last surviving son appeared to be dead or dying. He fell into madness and Gandalf had to save Faramir from his father. He then awaited the coming of the king after the grand battle. Aragorn healed him of the illness known as the Black Breath, which came from close contact with a Nazgul. He met the similarly healed E'owyn in the Houses of Healing and went on to a happy ending as Steward of Gondor under his new king. Faramir was definitely a better fit for Malcolm. But it didn't appear that his father would remember his love for his son. Malcolm had been dying and the elder Reed still had disdain for his son. Given, he was perhaps fueled by grief as Denethor was. But this had to go deeper and further back. Had Malcolm, like Faramir, never received his father's affection or had something caused the rift between them. Was it that secret hurt Trevon had sensed? There, he was at the address. He hesitated to ring the chime on the door. It had been a late night in this household and someone may still be sleeping. So he tried a subtler approach. *Commander Tucker. It is Dr. Trevon. I am outside your door.** "Oh, wow. Never had this happen before, well, except.... But anyway, it's probably a good thing. Miguel's asleep on the couch. I'll be right there." A moment later, the door opened to reveal a somewhat disheveled Commander Tucker. "Come on in," he whispered. "And call me Trip." "Ah yes, I forgot," Trevon whispered back. A young man with a slightly darker complexion was sleeping on the sofa in the main room. The aforementioned Miguel. Dr. MacCormack had told him a relation of Trip's was a home health nurse. So he had probably stayed up the night with Malcolm. Trip led him first into the kitchen and quietly introduced his parents as Charles and Elaine Tucker. "Would you like some coffee, Dr. Trevon?" Elaine offered. "Thank you, but, please, I'm sure we'll be seeing a lot of each other. Leave the 'doctor' off and just call me Trevon." "Please, have a seat," Trip said, pulling out a chair. So Trevon sat and Elaine set a steaming mug in front of him. "I'm glad you could come so soon." "What have I missed?" Trevon asked. "How has he been?" "Catatonic?" Trip guessed. "He never said a word, just stared and looked pitiful. But he was kind of pliant. He stood when I stood him up, walked where I led him. He let us change his wet clothes. Then he curled up in bed. He hasn't moved or even closed his eyes all night." "He did speak to me once," Trevon admitted. "Last night while you were collecting his things. He told me he wasn't Sam. Instead he was Faramir. Are you familiar with this character?" "Kinda," Trip replied. "We watched the movies on the ship before the crash. He was Boromir's brother." "Oh, I remember," Elaine spoke up. "He broke my heart. The way his father treated him." "It seems a fitting analogy," Trevon surmised, "but I'd be interested to know what you've seen or heard about Malcolm's feelings in regards to his father." Trip pondered the question for a moment. He seemed puzzled. "Malcolm's not the most forthcoming person when it comes to his private life. I know he said he wasn't particularly close with anyone in his family. He must not have meant Madeline. She left him everything in her will. Everything." Trevon considered this. "It could be that she wasn't allowed to show her affection for her brother. There's a lot we don't know yet. Anything else?" "I think I remember him slipping a remark here and there," Trip said, "about how he hoped his father would be proud of him. But I never heard if he was. I know that no one knew Malcolm's favorite food. Not his parents, Madeline, an uncle, a couple of aunts or a friend from the Academy." That was odd. So Malcolm's reticence to speak about himself reached into his family life. "That's not normal, right?" Trip asked. "Not in healthy families,' Trevon confirmed. "Anything else?" "That's about it," Trip answered. "Malcolm Reed is known on the ship as an enigma wrapped in a mystery. I'm his best friend but there's a lot I don't know about him." Trevon smiled. "And that didn't hamper your friendship?" Trip shook his head but then changed his mind. "Well, at first. We got stuck together in a shuttlepod. Comm went out in an asteroid field. We saw debris from *Enterprise** and thought it was destroyed and then microsingularities--yeah, they're a thing--put holes in one of our oxygen tanks. We thought we were going to die out there. The first few days, he drove me nuts. I won't go into it because I don't think he'd appreciate it. But it was like he was droppin' pieces to his puzzle, too. Once I stopped bein' so selfish, I could see 'em. Long story short, we found a bottle of bourbon, got the comms fixed enough to hear *Enterprise**. So we were happy for about thirty seconds. Then we realized we'd be dead long before *Enterprise** could reach us at their present speed. I lowered the temperature to use less oxygen. Malcolm had the idea to blow up the engine. Maybe the ship would see it and speed up. Eventually, we passed out. Woke up in Sickbay." He chuckled. "Nearly died of hypothermia. Still had a few hours of oxygen left. So really, *I** nearly killed us. Anyway, after that, we were friends. He was still and enigma but it didn't matter anymore. I accepted him as he was." Trevon smiled in earnest. "You are a good friend, Trip. And I appreciate your respect for his privacy. From here on out, I will have to respect it as well. I may come to you for clarification at times before you leave, but what I learn from him will be between us, unless he divulges it himself." Trip nodded, as did his parents. "May I see him now?" Trevon asked. Trip stood. "I'll show you to him." Trevon stood and Trip led him back to the front room, then down a hall and to the first room on the right. It was quite dark in the room so Trip raised the lights somewhat. "You ever just read someone's mind?" Trip whispered. "Only in severe cases," Trevon responded in kind. "I think this might be one of those cases." "That will need to be determined," Trevon told him. "If I need that 'clarification', may I contact you telepathically?" Trip nodded. "Sure." He looked toward the bed then sighed. "I'll leave you to it. Good luck." He left the room and Trevon closed the door. There was a chair at the desk so Trevon pulled it over to the side of the bed and sat down. Malcolm was turned to face the wall. He gave no sign that he was aware anyone was in the room with him. "Malcolm," Trevon tried. "It's Trevon. I was hoping we could talk today. I know last night was very difficult for you. It's understandable. I'm very sorry for the loss of your sister, though I'm grateful to her for loving you enough to give her life for yours." Nothing. The only movement was the in and out of the blankets as he breathed. The movement was regular, so he wasn't crying. Trevon opened his mind to see if Malcolm was still projecting that deep sadness. But he felt no difference. It was almost like Malcolm wasn't there. Trip was right. This was one of those cases. He pulled a PADD from his pocket so that he could record notes or whatever clues he should find in Malcolm Reed's mind. Then he took a smaller device from a different pocket and attached it just behind his left ear. Once synchronized to the PADD, it would record any telepathic communications between therapist and client. He could telepathically dictate notes to annotate those communications. He synchronized the device then prepared himself. It was easier if he could look his patient in the face, but he focused on the back of Malcolm's head. Then slowly, he opened his barrier just a little but said nothing. And Malcolm was there. The PADD stayed blank. Not enough information yet. He went wider bit by bit until he could hear--and see--Malcolm's thoughts. While it outwardly appeared that Malcom had no thoughts, in truth, he was drowning in them. The PADD lit up with line after line of text in Betazedian. Trevon tried to annotate, to translate when he saw only images and or heard only voices. But the thoughts swirled so fast, tumbling over each other, so that he could only consciously catch a few at a time. There were images of a blonde girl at various ages. Madeline. Angry, demeaning messages from Stuart Reed, echoed by Mary Reed, though more softly. Meals at a table when Malcolm felt ill eating the food in front of him but choked down every bite. Water. Lots of water. Malcolm in water. And not swimming. More of the orcs and T-Rexes. Violent scenes. What must have been Baezhu's corpse disemboweled. Malcolm's execution. A blinding, burning, oppressive sun. Back to the white blonde hair of his sister and around and around it went. When Trevon had recorded for more than an hour, he slipped back out. The lines of data ceased on the PADD. Trevon scrolled up and scanned the whole thing, trying to sort as best he could. Family memories, Zheiren memories. Drowning memories. He tried to infer ages, if humans and Betazoids developed similarly. Madeline at three or four, teenaged, a grown woman. *Do you know the age difference between Malcolm and Madeline, by chance?** he asked Trip. "Four years," Trip replied. "Though he's a year older than he is, technically." *Thank you,** Trevon cut the connection. So now if he could estimate Madeline's age, he could extrapolate Malcolm's in the thoughts of her. Harder to do with the parents. He opened the connection to Trip again. *Can you get background checks on his parents--and not read them?** "I could try. Dr. MacCormack could probably order them after the outburst last night. Should I give her a call?" *Please do. It may help me to sort through my findings.** "Is he talking?" Trip sounded hopeful. *No, Trip. It's one of those cases.** "I'll give her a call." *Thank you,** He closed the connection again. "I'm sorry I had to do that, Malcolm. But I understand now what's happening. You are spiraling through your hurts. You can't focus or speak of one because it leads to another and another and another. You've left me quite a puzzle. It will take me a little while to get through it. But once I do, I hope we can talk. I'll guide you. I'll ask you questions, lead you to one hurt at time. Please try and sleep. You need the rest. I'm staying just a short walk away. If ever you need me, you may call for me. Either by comm or by your telepathy. I will respond. I will come." He stood and replaced the chair. He was reasonably certain that Malcolm hadn't heard a word or even noticed the intrusion into his mind. Trevon left the room and returned to the kitchen. "I've done all I can today," he quietly told Trip and his parents. "I can tell you that he's in there. It's not that he's not thinking. His body is on automatic because his mind is too preoccupied with memories and thoughts. He is not aware of his surroundings." "I told 'em about Betazoids bein' telepaths," Trip admitted. "And that you don't go around readin' minds, except in severe cases." "Thank you," Trevon said. "It's so common on Betazed that I sometimes forget it's not here. I do not enjoy intruding in such a way. But I was able to glean a lot of information. I need to parse through it. Background checks on the parents may help me put some of it into context. And Trip, could you summarize what happened to Ensign Sato when she was separated from him?" Trip nodded. "MacCormack's on the background checks. I leave tomorrow. Any chance he'll be able to talk by then?" "I think he'll talk," Trevon said, "but it will be on his timetable. Right now, he can't. You might be able to feed him, as you said he was pliant. Your relation, Miguel, can perhaps help with that and other necessities. I'd like to speak to him when he wakes. You can contact me at any time. I'm staying within walking distance." Trip went to the comm. "What's the address?" Trevon told him and Trip added it to the contacts. "Call me if anything changes. I hope to return tomorrow morning, if that is amenable?" "Anytime," Charles said. "Just let one of us know you're at the door." "Thank you. It's very kind of you to take him in." "He's family," Elaine remarked. "He just doesn't know it yet." Trip smiled again. "That may be just what he needs in the end. I'll let myself out."
Back to alt.startrek.creative | Previous | Next — Next in thread | Find similar
ENT WIP: Finding Home 9a/? R/S [R] Philippe de la Matraque <pdelamatraque@gmail.com> - 2020-11-12 22:16 -0600
Re: ENT WIP: Finding Home 9a/? R/S [R] Alan Heah <fynyx@singnet.com.sg> - 2021-11-27 22:36 -0800
Re: ENT WIP: Finding Home 9a/? R/S [R] Philippe de la Matraque <pdelamatraque@gmail.com> - 2023-05-07 00:34 -0700
csiph-web