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Re: I'm Gay, And Not Afraid To Admit It!

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You've been busy trying to initiate discussions I see!  

You pose questions that should be easy to answer, but for me are a little tough personally.  But, I have to emphasize, it's my own experiences that make it tough.  How old was I when I began to feel I might be Gay?  If I am honest, I would say when I was a pre-teen, around 10-years-old.  How old was I when I finally embraced my sexuality?  I wish I could say when I was a teenager!  Unfortunately, I didn't until this one warm Saturday evening at the end of April, 1994, when I was 7-months away from my 40th birthday!  That was the evening I first had that extreme pleasure of feeling another guy's penis sliding into my rectum!

Back in the mid-60's and early-70's, like so many boys in their late-pre-teen-to-early-teen years, I had a serious wrestling match with my sexuality.  It started, as I said, when I was 11-years-old and started in middle school.  With all those very attractive girls at school, I should have been able to find at least one girl I was interested in, and maybe she would be interested in me.  There was one problem.  There were quite a number of drop-dead gorgeous girls in school, and none of them did anything for me.  If anything, being around them made me feel uncomfortable!   I was more relaxed around my guy friends sometimes too relaxed!  I never took a shower in the school gym, as if one of my friends had been in there, I would have most likely got hard as a rock!    

In the summer of 1973, when I was 18, I was set up for a date with a girl, who was a year older than I was.  As was, and is, so typical of teenagers, the date ended up with us having sex together.  It was my first time ever, and it was a big disappointment to say the least.  And not just because it ended up being a one-night stand.  The whole thing did nothing for me, other than to be my first sexual release (with another person, anyway!).  Kissing her did nothing, although her kissing my neck did get me aroused.  But, that was it.  Even during intercourse, something just didn't feel right.

In 1982, a co-worker fixed me up with a co-worker of his wife's.  a woman a year younger, divorced, with two young boys.  We dated for two years, and while we engaged in sex a lot of times, it just didn't feel right.  Then I made a big mistake.  I bowed to pressure from friends, family, and associates, and I married her.     We were together almost 10-years when something was seriously amiss.    Her one son had moved out, and a friend of her other son had moved in.  Weird things happened!    She began being distant with me and was going out and staying out a lot. Too, when she did come home, she was "feeling good".  Translation, she was drunk!  

One day, on a Saturday in late April, 1994, 2-months away from our 10th anniversary, and seven months away from my 40th birthday, I was home by myself.  It was quite early, around 8:00, and I went out.  As she was always taking the car, I took the public transportation to the downtown area of the city.  I didn't mind, as it was a gorgeous day!  Welcomed after a very harsh winter!  I was walking around, and I suddenly found myself standing in front of a bookstore.  And not just any bookstore.  This particular bookstore catered to people who lived a certain lifestyle, Homosexuality!  Suddenly, I was back in my mid-teens and questioning my sexuality.  I still don't know why I did what I did, but, as I stood looking in the window, I decided to go in.  I was looking around and was standing looking at books geared toward Gay men.  That's when something happened that would, within maybe 12-hours, change my life forever, and wake me up to something that should have happened years ago!

I was standing there, looking at the latest addition of a book called, "The Joy Of Gay Sex".  Next thing, someone spoke to me, asking if that book was interesting.  The person was a younger, and a really good looking guy.   We chatted a bit, and I ended up buying the book.  My new friend invited me for a coffee at a little café around the corner from the bookstore.  I already knew about this café, because it was well known as being frequented by Gay people, mostly, Gay guys.  That day, I was going to look for it, and like me standing in front of that bookstore, I didn't know why!  Anyway, my friend, David, and I bought coffees and went and sat down outside on the patio.  It was interesting sitting there, and seeing several guys holding hands and kissing each other.  David and I chatted for nearly two hours.  During that time, I just felt there was something about him.  I was finding myself attracted to him.  David was very open.  He was Gay, but didn't have a partner and hadn't had one for about two years.  At least, not a partner that he could call a primary partner.  More on that later!  We chatted and chatted.  The whole time, I was becoming more and more interested in him.  

It was a little after noon when we cordially parted.  About an hour later, I was home to a still-empty house.  I sat there for a couple of hours, and while I began leafing through that book I bought, I could not stop thinking about David.  Finally, realizing I was not going to have any company at home, I went back out and at around 5:30, I found myself back at that café.  I got a coffee and sat outside for about 20-minutes.  Then I someone said, "Oh!  You're back!"  It was David!  We sat and chatted again over coffees, and I came to realize what it was about him that was affecting me.  He was very appealing!  I was attracted to him!  Then it got really crazy.  David lived just a couple of blocks away, and he invited me to his apartment.  There, we sat and talked more.  Then, and this happened at around 7:00, I had an amazing experience.  David kissed me!  And it wasn't just a touching of our lips.  Our mouths were both wide open and our tongues were dancing together.  I was so aroused!  in fact, I had never been so aroused.  It was better than any kiss I had from any woman!  Way, way better!

It got better yet!  Way much better yet!

We started to make out, big time.  I had never made out to where it felt so hot!  David asked if I wanted to have sex with him.  I was maybe slightly hesitant, but, after his kiss, I wanted to know what Gay sex felt like.  Plus, David got me in the one spot that, when he planted his lips on that spot, I was under his control.  It rendered me helpless.  David kissed my throat area!  That was when we went to his bedroom.  There, we both took off all our clothes.  David had me lay on his bed face down.  He was hard and ready.   "Your first time?", he asked.  It was, but he said he would take me easily.  He did!  As I laid there, David pulled a condom on, and coated his covered penis with Vaseline.  "Ready?", he asked.  The way I was laying, I was resting so my neck was across the foot board of his bed, looking down at the floor.   There was a post at each corner, and I grabbed them.  Then, in an instant, my life changed forever.  I felt the tip of David's penis push against the opening of my ass, then I felt it slide in.  "Oh yes!", I said.  Not very far, just so the tip was fully inside me.  Still, it felt so sensuous!  As I felt him enter, I took a deep breath and held it.  He stopped, and I exhaled.  "Yes!  Yes!", I said.   He pushed in a little deeper, then deeper yet.  "Oh, yes!"  It took several pushes before he was inside me as far as he could get!  "Geeze!  Your ass is so tight!  So hot!", David told me.  All I could say was,  "Oh!  Oh!  Yes!"  And with each push, I held my breath until he stopped moving, then I exhaled.  Then he really drove me over the top!  He pulled back, almost to a full withdrawal, then he thrust in all the way!  It was THE hottest moment ever!  He did me like that for several minutes!  Then, suddenly, on what was to be his final thrust, he stopped when he "hit bottom".  He then wrapped his arms around me and held me tight.  That is when I could feel his throbbing member, and the hotness that surrounded it.  He was ejaculating!  Into the condom!  He couldn't move!  I just savored the moment!  

After a few minutes, he finally withdrew, pulling his filled cover with him.  Then, it was my turn.  I was as hard as I had ever been.  The condom when on with ease.  I covered it all with a good coating of Vaseline.  Then, as he laid there, face-down, I touched the tip to his anal opening.  He moaned!  Then I slowly pushed it in a little more.  He moaned again.  "Deeper!  Deeper!", he said.  I pushed deeper!  "Yes!  Deeper!"  His ass was so tight! I went deeper!  "Yes!  Yes!"    Finally, I was in as far as I could get!  "Oh yes!  Pound me!"  I pulled back, trying not to pull completely out.  Then I pushed in all the way!  David didn't moan!  He let out a very excited, "Oh Yes!!  Yes!  Yes!"  I pulled back again and thrust forward again!  My wife's vagina wasn't this tight!  Or hot!    David's ass felt a thousand times hotter!   I pushed in and withdrew for several minutes!   David kept saying over and over, "Oh!  Do me!  Do me!"  Then, it happened!  I began to cum like I never came before!  My penis throbbed madly!  And, I filled that condom!  I came so hard, I saw stars!   I had never cum that hard before, ever!  I had to stop moving!  Luckily, I was at David's bottom.  I wrapped my arms around him as tight as I could and held him.  My penis still throbbed like crazy!  I was in heaven!  Never had sexual intercourse felt so hot, sexy, and sensuous!  

We both laid there as mainly I recovered.  That absolutely blew me away!  I know knew what was the matter.  All my life, I had lived in denial.  I was Gay, and I should have pursued this a long time before, like when I was a teenager.  

After laying there for about a half hour, with my penis still embedded inside David's ass, I finally was able to withdraw.  After a little while longer, we both hit the bathroom to deposit our full condoms down the toilet.  Then came our next hot adventure.  We hit the shower.  Together!  Trouble was, we began making out, which got us both so aroused.   No, we didn't get into each other in the shower.  (For the record, we would have shower sex in the not-too-distant future!  Just not that evening!)  We didn't make it that far!  What happened caught us both off guard.  We were both so aroused (I guess the correct thing to say is, we were super horny!), we both began to ejaculate, before we could get into each other.  All we could do was grab and hug each other.  Our semen shot out and was coating our stomachs.  We just held each other, sandwiching our two throbbing members between us.  

Wow!  Two heavy (and I mean H-E-A-V-Y ) orgasms each within like 90-minutes.  

We had to call it a night finally, sometime before 1:00, as the public transportation stopped at 2:00.  David walked we to the bus stop.  As we saw the bus approach, we quickly kissed.  the bus pulled up, and David and I parted for the evening.  The trip home took almost an hour.  I got to the door at a little after 2:00.  Once there though, I began to get a strange feeling.  Nobody was home.  I was by myself.  It was OK though.  It gave me some alone time to think about my evening, and about David.  And about the best sex I ever experienced!

David and I were together for twenty-three wonderful years.  Sadly, I lost David this year, on July 1st.  Back in late April, around about what was our 23rd anniversary, David was diagnosed with oesophageal cancer.  At least his suffering didn't last long, but it still hit me hard when he died.  He was only 56-years-old.  Funny thing!  Just a few hours before he took his final breath, we had a good laugh.  What about?  He said he could still see the look on my then-wife's face when I introduced David to her!  The best part of that moment, other than that look on her face, was that it made my wife decide right then and there to end our so-called marriage.   I'll have to post about that story!      

Do I have any regrets about anything?  About finally coming to terms with being Gay?  Oh yes!  Big time!  Aside from my disastrous marriage, which I wished I had of avoided the whole relationship from the beginning, I should have pursued my true feelings that I was Gay back at least when I was still in my teens, maybe not while I was still in high school, but definitely immediately afterwards.  I most likely wouldn't of had all those "this doesn't feel right" feelings throughout those years before I came to embrace my true sexuality.  I would of had a lot more fun!  Maybe though, I might never had met David, then again, I might have met him sooner than I did!  You just never know!  Oh well!  As the saying goes, live and learn.  Oh, and something else I learned, it's never too late! 

>On Sunday, December 3, 2017 at 6:28:37 AM UTC-5, Kenny wrote:

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